Hello again, I've had a terrible two weeks trying to get these paintings done, I've spent fifteen hours working and reworking, changed the colours layer after layer mix after mix that now theres a lot of paint under the surface

I went in to the studio today, a last try before tomorrow's deadline ( if the work looked that bad I had some back up paintings I could exhibit )

Well I got myself out of bed, told myself what kind of artist is one who gives in if it's not going well (in my case probably not an artist at all becase it never seems to go to plan) and ended up completing two paintings in one hour
I painted simple light bold colours contrasting to the darker textured parts.. Why Couldn't I have done that in the first place? I could have spent the rest of the week being lazy or working on some other art; an hour?!! .
At least I know how to paint something similar again.
The works good enough to exhibit, well it has to be because it's going in the show, but
I want to be progressing and I don't feel I have with these...I have learnt to plan the work a bit more before I start and to write down all the technique as I spent ages trying to work out how I did some gradual changes of colour using acrylic and pva layers, that took me two hours...which obviously I could have saved hours if I scribbled it somewhere

I'm so boring, welcome to my world that consists of paint.

Shows over, but I'm not twiddling my fingers, I have a group exhibition this week 20th May 2007, Been doing these paintings and they are going really badly, really badly, so I'll work on them again tomorrow. I have some other paintings I could put in but I really want these ones to work, new work that I can put in.
I had such a boost from the bored sick exhibition, everybody understood what I was doing and why and I think they got something out of going,, well they seemed to be interested. I had a lot of people opening up and telling me these awful things that had happened in their lives due to mental illness, break downs or stories of close ones that had experienced the same sort of thing as me.
Exhibiting this work has been one of, if not the best thing I have ever done, thing is I've had my high I'm on a come down and my work at the moment looks rubbish, I've been painting seriously for twelve years and if what I'm doing at the moment is anything to go by I feel like I haven't learnt a thing, see how it goes tomorrow.Yea, I'm on a downer,,,great.